I don’t want to think about anything right now. Do you know what feeling in like means ?? stress, worried expressions, weary and misty thoughts, constant agitation, an over pumped heart, along with supersonic heartbeats (bear with my supersonic exaggeration). For me at least. But for a week or so now, I felt NONE OF THAT. That feels so good, well, it felt so good!!! That adrenaline rush was no more caused by a testosterone oozing being; it was (FINALLY) caused by achievement, fun, fulfillment and glee. (Are achievement and fulfillment the same??) My boyfriend (as of now I still do not know if I can still call him that, and he is the cause of my being over my first love. And just NOT thinking about either of them felt… so GOOD! No one caught me day dreaming, and even if they did, it was for some delirious moment my friends and I managed to imprint in my memory for some particular (usually wild) reason. J
Obviously I am boyfriend-less because the both of us are POOR at being in relationships, he does not care, and I do not push. So we’re both hanging somewhere, not that I cared for the past week or so. The guy I first fell in love with was no more in my head, simply because I already had my ‘boyfriend’ to think about. But ….
I saw my first love today. He was the epitome of freshness. At least the holiday did him good [ I look a mess, not to mention the GREAT ZIT between my nose and upper lip]. Oh well so I just have to rush things cause if I sit down and describe him y’all will prolly say ‘oh she’s still in loooove’, but no I am NOT. So yeah he looked pretty good and the genuine hug ended up being really genuine with a RUSH but pardonne moi… mea culpa… so yes as I was saying.
I ended up smiling all the way to my destination via the great big bus (from caf to north campus to dorm … blame my lazy but lovely friends… we couldn’t walk under the not so sunny sun) and yes, I had to admit the obvious to my friends, he makes me happy. The way they made me admit it made it look like I was committing a crime, when really, I was not. The other thing was they KNOW que esta pasando, how happy I get when I see him, naughty brats just wanted to hear me say it!! Brrr, imam kick their butts! Lol
But think about it, is being elated after seeing you ex-first-love a crime?
No I think not. But since I believe the world is a free planet, you can have your own opinion.
Cheerios!
