The Pizza I Didn't Eat, The Research Paper I Didn't Write, The Problem We Didn't Resolve, But I'm all Smiles. . .

so today was a day i cant possibly fathom would ever happen to me...
I know there's drama and chaos and sits in my life but today's was...
the second point id like to point out (haha point id like to point.. get it? lol. oh whatever, whats the point?)  is that i have always considered myself to be selfish. i tend to have zero self esteem, i tend to be self conscious, i tend to dwell in my past and dwell even some more in past actions.
and the third is i found out that i still have the ability to sacrifice. you know how people think chivalry is dead but well, and then this prince charming comes along, whisks you away and apparently and all of a sudden chivalry ISN'T dead.... well this is what happened to me tonight.
and wow whee, tonight is the first of december... hmmm
so YESH. BACK TO MY POINT
i found out, tonight, the first of december.. that, oh sorry 2010, ... two years before the 'end of the world' haha that i still love my friends and i still have the heart to let go of things that i care about and attend to others. not that anyone needed attending to, i mean none of the chickens (which i love oh so very much) listened to my advice but ya za ayi? abi ya zan iya.
so anyway, i'm just pleased that i wasn't self absorbed in a pessimistic and saddening way.
i was there for my buddies, i wasn't biased (OK I MIGHT HAVE BEEN BUT I INTENDED NOT TO BE SO THERE!)
oh and the thing i missed out on was i lost the chance to be with my grizzly bear. i'm going to be optimistic like he is, and hope there's another chance. and yes there will be another chance.
oh i also sacrificed my pizza with Sashaaa :) which doesnt matter cause grizzly bear offered to take us back to the pizzeria but i just said no, didnt want anything further to happen.
and then the other thing i sacrificed was my research paper. i know its due on the 14th but mahhn, it's like ten flipping pages long, boring and i have exams before the fourteenth so i need time and space to study for them.
and I can only do that when i am done with the paper and have nothing else on my mind.
anyway
i shouldnt gloat about my love for my friends, people already know i'm awesome (more gloating)
so yes. heading on to my research paper.